It's a sad time

It has been many moons since my last post, and today I write with a sad heart. Many of you have heard of the Oceanside police officer that was killed in the line of duty. He was my friend, my co-worker, and a brother. When I first heard the news that Dan was shot, my stomach fell throught he floor. The day before I was hanging out with him in the desert shooting our guns and haveing a blast. How could this possibly be. I began to feel very angry as I quickly gathered my gear and rushed into work. What started as another day off turned into a nightmare. After the long night experiencing an emotional roller coaster, I returned home and crashed. People cope with experiences such as this in their own ways. I realize there will be no more memories created with Dan, and I need to remember the ones we already have. I think the worst part about this is I have to now answer many difficult questions from my 8 year old daughter who sees the news and feels my sadness. Friday I returned to work for my normal shift, and I almost called in sick. But I realized I need to be with others who felt the same, and to keep myself busy. It was a long night.
Time will heal the pain and sorrow, but my heart truely hurts for his wife and two month old son. What a horrible bit of news to recieve. The way Dan was killed could not be prevented, nor are there any tactics that can be practiced or learned. What can be learned is life can end very quickly and without notice. You can not wait to patch relationships or develope new ones, because you may never know when they will end. As I struggle through this with tears in my eyes, I just ask everyone to take a quick moment and tell your friends and family you love them and appreciate them...there may not be a chance tomorrow.